If Only I knew...

I just read my myspace blogs from before my life got like 10 times worse. god i was so stupid and rather pathetic. If only i knew. i would've copied them to this blog, but it doesn't work properly and cuts off half of it. i just can't believe how stupid i was, i mean considering all the thinking with theories and ideas and things i come up with in my mind like the images or ideas for stories. i just feel so stupid, like if only i had known what was coming then maybe i wouldn't have hated my life so much. im just so, so flustered i just, i don't know what to do. maybe if i think about it more it'll make sense, hahaha because thats a good idea. any way i had to tell someone how i feel so i figured i'd write about it since i haven't written in so long. ugh, i hate this. i just can't win with life, can i? whatever.