Because I'm angry. (yay for being melodramatic.)
Fade, Fade.
Fade away,
maybe I'll come out to play,
another day...
But for now I will sit and wait,
find trust in the only thing I can,
Because it's gone, it's broken.
And I'm lost again.
There's a hole where my heart should be,
This is how it should be.(not)
I found a vice,
a lie, that I begged myself to believe.
"It will all be ok"
Now it's gone.
Taken away, just as quickly.
Did you ever get to know me?
Never did I see,
I did not know,
why would you just put up a show?
Because I'm the one that has to clean up your mess.
I wish I could just sit and cry.
But somewhere along the way,
I lost the ability.
Fading, fading,
fading away.
I will never come out to play.
I can't even put this into words. I can't even write. Because I don't know what to say.
I want to just spill everything, but who would listen?
Who would understand?
All I've ever depended on has been ripped from beneath my feet.
Leaving me to fall,
spiral down,
into a whirlwind of emotion.
I'm cascading into a river of denial,
watching as all I ever knew,
is changed, taken away, detroyed.
And all I wanted?
Was that lie.
"It will all be ok."
All I want is to believe it.
I have yet to find someone I can believe.
Or even someone I can trust to believe.
Who in their right mind,
Would ever want to believe in such a person,
Like me?
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