Sometimes I want to sleep and never wake up.
The only thing I have left tying me to this place, is my room and my friends. What happens when they're gone?
What do you do when your whole life feels like it's been ripped from beneath your feet, because the people "in control" are more stubborn then cats?
I swear I can feel the hammer swing down on my head every single time.
I can feel it boil in my blood, and simmer in my veins.
I can feel it posses me from the tips of my toes to the ends of my hair.
It seeps in and entangles itself within my very soul, whats left of it that is...
My heavy eyelids don't even begin to tell you how I really feel.
I once felt like I could fall asleep and never wake up. I hated my life and downed as much booze as I could. I blacked out and didn't wake up for 3 days! After that I wondered if that's what death felt like, If so, I want to be there.
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