I know it's been a while since i last wrote, but i've got some strange, and rather pointless ironies to point out. this will prove how badly i need a life...
1.my friend cut her toe open at school, my other friend did the same thing at camp.
2.my sisters friend was wearing a mtn. dew shirt. i was drinking mtn.dew.
3.these 2 guys i know, theres fav number is 7. thats my birthday.
4. i found this really nice blue stone, just like the one in this one book...
5.we found to an abandoned house, i'd had a dream about that.
So i know its all pointless, or seemingly so but its all weirdly relavant to me. i was watching family guy today and it was the one where Meg finds god. i was tihnking, if god does exsist (seeing as im athiest) then why does he only focus on certain things, why does he not do anything about peace, or hunger? im extremely interested in the Holocaust, so i read about it alot. in one of the books it said. "pray, pray to god he'll save us. But it seemed god was not listening." shouldn't he always listen to everyone? i mean if he created all this, thne why can't he keep up with us? it seems to me, that he simply isnt' listening to some people. he's forgotten. which i know sounds terribal. dont get me wrong i've got nothing against him, and im not trying to change your faith or whatever, im just saying .why doesn't he listen? i know its stupid, and that questions like that are asked all the time, but wouldn't he prove he's there in some way? i mean, karmas a bitch, but it also proves quite a bit. anything god does, could simply be coincedence. oyy, i dont know. i just wish i had a good reason to believe in him, because i wan't to, but nothing seems to be that simple for me these days. If i maneged to offend anyone in my views, im terribly sorry. i just needed to say that to someone. and this is all i've got because my therapist is reallllllllly strange. oy. sorry, im complaining again. its just im so sick of all this, that i blocked everything out. i can hardly remember things i've done only hours before, in detail. Am i blocking out to much? is there somthing else i can do? if anyones reading this, if anyone happens to care at the moment, you should help me out. i can't seem to give myself good advice. everyone else, sure, me nope not a chance. well i've got to go to bed, and i've got top stop this dumbass pity party. so untill next time,
Oneday, Someday.
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